Today I want to write about hope. I want to write about what I consider to be man’s greatest strength and greatest weakness.
Hope. They say that only hope can prove to be stronger than fear. I agree. Hope gives us the strength to endure the unbearable, to struggle against the impossible, to deny defeat. Hope allows us to find clarity and faith and courage when there’s only darkness.
Believe it or not, without hope… there is only darkness. Because even if you lost everything, if you still have hope, not everything’s lost. But lose hope, and everything’s lost.
I want to thank Wayne, Ken, Carla, Natty, Nathan, Patricia, and Joseph for their contributions. It truly means a lot to me, and… I really want to thank you. That’s it. I’ve struggled with these issues for so long… it becomes unbearable at a certain point.
I never got a chance to explain exactly what is it that it’s wrong. I thought people didn’t want to know. I have some sort of calcium deficiency, and well… my teeth decay. There’s no other way to put it. The enamel decays, then… well it progresses until there’s not much left except the root. It happened with my upper teeth a few years ago, it’s happening now with the lower set of teeth. There’s nothing to be done to stop it.
Right now I can only eat on one side, but that’s not easy and it’s moderately painful.
The surgery I’m having Monday won’t fix everything, but it’s a big progress towards fixing this.
Of course, some of you may say that dental issues are not that serious. It’s not only about pain (and there’s lots and lots of that, a fact I had to get used to since I was in high school.) It’s also about the risk of running an infection that might spread throughout the body. Not to mention the difficulty of eating.
What did I do all these years?
I took a lot of painkillers. I worked. I wrote. I kept this blog alive by any means necessary.
Yes, I believed that I was fighting for something more important than my own health. This blog, my stories.
But the truth is that I’m scared. Right now… I’m scared. Or maybe I’m just now beginning to accept this as a fact. This blog is pretty much everything I have, and reaching out to you is the only thing I can do. Reaching out for help.
So far we have raised a total of $773 dollars. About a hundred more are needed for the surgery on Monday.
You can donate any amount you see fit via PayPal to to contact [at] cristianmihai [dot] net. Any amount matters. Any amount helps me immensely.
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Also, anyone who donates $50 or more will be featured as sponsor for one month and will get a blog post reblogged.
Once again, thank you all for your support, for your contributions, for your comments and e-mails, and… well… for taking the time to read the stuff that I write. You give me hope. You always will.