Too far apart

many“There are too many of us and we are all too far apart.” ― Kurt Vonnegut

I’m writing these words knowing that people from all over the world are going to read them. People of all ages, ethnic and cultural backgrounds, of different religious beliefs. Most of them, I’ll never get a chance to meet. Most of them, I don’t know how they look like, what’s the thing they want most in this world, or what is it that they’re afraid of… most of them are perfect strangers to me.

Yet, simply by writing these words with these strangers in my mind, having the certainty that my words will reach them, they become a little bit more than strangers. They become human beings, just like myself, and that is one of life’s greatest achievements. Continue reading

Over the edge…

edgeI’m going to write about something I’m sure most of you don’t really want to read. It’s one of those topics we rarely explore, simply because we’d like to deny their very existence.

I don’t know how you think I am, if you view me as an idealist or a realist, if you think I’m good or not or even worse than that, but the truth is that, for most of my life, I’ve been a pessimist. One of the worst kind, actually.

The ones who feel they never get what they want. The ones who see themselves and the world around them as broken beyond repair. There’s never enough light for the ones who are afraid of the dark.

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Passion

passion“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”Howard Thurman

Ask yourself this simple question: what makes that little muscle inside your chest beat? I mean, really, really beat. Insanely strong, in such a way that you can feel it furiously pumping blood inside your body. What’s your passion? What do you live for? What are you willing to die for? Continue reading

That time of the year

gatsby“Can’t repeat the past?…Why of course you can!”  – Francis Scott Fitzgerald

I’ve been reading F. S. Fitzgerald’s The Great Gatsby once a year ever since I was seventeen. To say that it’s my favorite novel would be an understatement. It is one of the few pieces of literature that I consider to be perfect in every aspect.

But now, on its 90th anniversary, I don’t want to write a review. I did that a couple of years ago.

In my humble opinion, Gatsby’s story is about the past. It’s a story about obsession, it’s a story about the way we think things are supposed to happen. You know, we all have that story as to how things are supposed to unfold in our lives. The story we develop during our loneliest of nights. Gatsby had a story; one that required Daisy’s love to happen. He wanted to repeat the past just so it wouldn’t matter all the time he spent (and all that he did) after he lost her. He wanted to make so that it would be as if he never lost her at all. Continue reading

On being strong

strength“Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.” – William Ellery Channing

They say that you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have. Some people like to put a lot of emphasis on being strong. They like to be perceived as strong, they like their strength to be acknowledged by others, never realizing that they’re just pretending to be strong, pretending to be tough.

There is a big difference between being strong and being tough. Between having the courage to pursue one’s dreams and isolating oneself emotionally from the rest of the world. Being strong is not about building walls, it’s about building bridges. It’s about taking that small island that is one self and connecting it with others. It’s about having a purpose, about having principles and abiding them no matter what. Continue reading

For sale: advertising opportunities

Hi guys,

I’ve decided to host a special sale this month.

1. Reblog – $50 $25 – Do you have a WordPress.com blog? Have you written a piece you’d want everyone to read? Now you can have your content reblogged to an audience of over 103,500.

You can purchase here. 6 spots available. You can buy as many as you like and use them whenever you want.

2. Sponsored Post$50  $25 – Do you have a book you’d want me to review? Or do you want me to interview you? Or simply showcase your works (for graphic artists, painters, etc.)?

You can purchase here. 5 spots available.

4. Star for a Month – $150 $75 – Be a star on my blog for one month. This means the following things:

You’ll get interviewed by me. (1 post)
I’ll review a book of yours, or I’ll showcase your works on my blog, or write an article about your website (1 post)
You can guest blog here. (1 post)
You’ll be mentioned as post sponsor on five of my posts, which means that at the end of said posts you’ll be mentioned and thanked. Also, you’ll be able to provide a short description of your blog/website.

You can purchase here. Just one spot available.

There you have it… quite a lot to chose from.

Payments are secured via PayPal. Also, you can purchase as many options as you like, as available. After that we get in touch via e-mail and set everything up.

Secondly, you can purchase the e-book bundle for only $6.99 hereWhat do you get for that kind of money?

Well… the following:

Jazz (novel)
The Writer (novel)
Fairytale: Episode I (serialized fiction)
Strangers (short story compilation)
An Emperor’s Will (novella)
Remember (short-story)
A Prestigious Award (short-story)
The Portrait of a Writer (compilation of essays)

*The funds raised through this endeavor will hep pay for my medical bills.

Thank you,

Cristian

Happiness. Hope. Ambition.

thingsWhen did we become a therapy society? When did it become easier to tell everyone about our troubles, but not our successes? Do you ever think about that?

But what is happiness? How can we attain it?

Well… the idea is that happiness cannot be pursued. It’s not something you receive or stumble upon. It’s not something to be found while actively searching for it. Continue reading

Indestructible

“We are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be.” – John Green

The mind works in ways that we don’t always comprehend. We ask ourselves why, yet no answers arrive to us. Our thoughts determine our outlook on life. The events in our lives get filtered by our perception; one that we have nurtured and adapted to our environment. We are what we think. We feel what we think. We behave according to our thoughts. Keep that in mind. Remember it. Tell yourself that even though you cannot change the events in your life, you can change the way you think about them.

“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms — to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.” – Viktor E. Frankl

The impossible

Sometimes words cannot express what needs to be said. Sometimes words fail in their one and only purpose: to deliver a message.

Right now, I am lost for words. I want to write about depression, about anxiety, about loneliness, about trying to get better and failing. I want to write about health issues, about debt, about the almost impossible task of turning things around.

My medical condition is turning out to be more costly than anticipated. Add bills to pay to that equation and it’s not looking good. I know I have to ask for help and hope for the better. The die have been cast. It is urgent and necessary. It’s not something to kid about.

I can talk about my passion, my dream of becoming a writer, the twelve years I have invested in it, for hours and hours. I do my best to motivate those around me, and yet I am the one who can’t be motivated. I am the one who is sad, depressed, and feels lonely, even though he isn’t.

I try my best… it doesn’t seem to work out.

Like I previously said. The situation is urgent. I’d write desperate, but I want to be optimistic about everything.

If you can and want to, you can help me out with any amount you see fit here.

I don’t know what else to write…