Over the edge…

edgeI’m going to write about something I’m sure most of you don’t really want to read. It’s one of those topics we rarely explore, simply because we’d like to deny their very existence.

I don’t know how you think I am, if you view me as an idealist or a realist, if you think I’m good or not or even worse than that, but the truth is that, for most of my life, I’ve been a pessimist. One of the worst kind, actually.

The ones who feel they never get what they want. The ones who see themselves and the world around them as broken beyond repair. There’s never enough light for the ones who are afraid of the dark.

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Finding perfection

modern_love“We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.”Tom Robbins

It seems to me that everyone’s got a list of traits they demand from a lover. They want to be loved in a very specific way by a certain someone who has the exact set of qualities they want. But I suppose no one actually asks themselves if they deserve such a person. They don’t even ask themselves what are they going to do with him/her.

There’s no such thing as a perfect lover or perfect relationship. Nothing is perfect. Continue reading

Without you

Without you I would have probably given up on my dream of becoming a published writer. Without you, I wouldn’t have dared imagine that I might someday accomplish all the dreams that I have stored up in my heart. You know, the impossible ones, the truly terrifying to even contemplate, the ones you think will change your life forever. And the world around you.

Without you, I have no audience. I have no one to write for, no one to write to, and without writing something each day, I have no purpose. Maybe it’s melodramatic, maybe it’s the truth. Who knows?

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P.S. I’d like to thank Ian and Heather for their recent contributions. Your help means a lot to me.

Frozen Waterfall

Originally posted on a sort of romance:

Time strips the color

from my eyes

as memories collide

swirling within

the thoughtless kind.

I spent a life waiting,

forcing impatient hands

unaware that what

awaited was only her…

…that’s her…

golden green peering

through me with

lens so clear,

curves instigating

pummeling breaths,

her mind a waterfall

of celebration’s fire.

She owned me

in moments where

time stands…..

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Regret

things“Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.

But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didn’t do.”

This quote is a voice-over from One Tree Hill, which is one of my favorite TV shows.

I’ve always thought regret to be one of man’s worst qualities. I’ve spent an awful lot of time trying to develop a sort of immunity. For a long time I’d much rather believe in destiny, in the fact that bad things happen for a good reason, than spend hours and hours sobbing after what could no longer be. Continue reading

That moment…

A couple of weeks ago I almost gave up on this blog, on writing, on basically everything I was. Quite a strange moment. I was afraid that I might never become what I’ve always wanted to be.

Because, as any self-publisher can tell you, summer is tough. Book sales always go down. In my case, they almost stopped. Even though I released a new title, that just wasn’t enough.

Sometimes things happen, and we can’t explain them. This was one of those times. Continue reading

New perks.

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If you enjoy reading my blog posts, if you believe in this crazy dream of mine… any contribution matters. Any amount helps me get closer to reaching my goal. Without your help, I wouldn’t be able to do any of this.

On letting go

books

The moment you buy any of my books and read it, that’s when that book becomes yours. And only yours. And you can take from it anything you want. You can love it, you can hate it, you can love me or hate me, but at that point I no longer care.

I find that’s the only way to actually “survive” as an artist. At least, without wanting to shoot yourself in the head every time someone tells you they hate your work. And it’s the only way to actually get past that paralyzing fear of rejection, that stupid voice inside your head telling you, over and over again, that your book is not good enough yet, that you need to work on it a little bit more… and so you spend so much time editing the same fifty thousand words that they stop feeling yours anymore. Continue reading