The last two weeks have been terrible. My right ear began to hurt. Then the right side of my jaw. And painkillers wouldn’t do much good. I struggled. Pain followed me everywhere, prevented me from sleeping, prevented me from properly hearing my own thoughts.
I went to see a doctor. He prescribed antibiotics and painkillers… it did the trick. Problem is, they’re kind of expensive. Also, apparently, to blame for all this is an infected tooth… well, the infections spread out or something like that, which is a really bad thing.
Why am I telling you all this?
Because there’s nothing else on my mind right now. I’m scared by what’s going to happen. Well, terrified actually. Never felt like this before. I’m afraid of what’s going to happen.
Last night I had to take more painkillers than ever just to be able to fall asleep. Two days earlier my gums bled.
For the first time in my life, I really feel powerless. I’ve talked to my mother, my father… they can’t afford to help me with the treatment. Heck, I can’t afford to help me with the treatment.
For the first time in my life, I don’t know how or what to write. I mean, I don’t know if I should write about this, how I should describe my current situation… it doesn’t make much sense.
And what is even sadder still… is that I knew this day would come. I’ve been “blessed” with sensitive teeth, and, so, had lots of trouble during the years. Cavities, infections, stuff like that. Never quite managed to fix everything at once, because it was too expensive.
I don’t know whom to ask for help. And I don’t really have much time.
It’s 1 AM where I’m at, and I can’t sleep. And, trust me, that’s the only thing I really want to do.
Honestly, I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I want to fight. I want to try to sell stuff, write stuff, do stuff, and pay for the treatment. I don’t want to roll over and die.
It won’t be until Thursday that I’ll find out exactly how much this is going to cost me. My health, the promise of a life without this insidious pain that’s keeping me awake at nights.
But until then I’ll try to figure things out. Make a plan, start selling stuff.
For now, I’ve got these books that I want to sell. A bundle of 3 signed paperbacks. It costs $40, International shipping included, and you can purchase one here.
If you don’t feel like it, or if that’s too much, you can buy an e-book bundle, which will cost you only $4.99. You can do so here.
And, yes, I’m aware this post reads something like a yard sale, but I honestly don’t know what else to know.
Ultimately, if you want to help out, you can donate any amount you’d like via PayPal to contact [at] cristianmihai [dot] net.
I’ll do my best to do my usual job: writing posts, doing interviews, taking care of sponsors, all that stuff. Because there’s nothing else I’d rather do.