Yesterday I felt like eating some traditional food, so I went to McDonald’s and ordered some stuff. And some fries to go with that stuff. Anyway, as I was eating my stuff, something happened.
Across from where I was seated was this girl. Truly beautiful. Like really, really. The sensible thing to do in this situation would be… dunno, but I got inspired. I stopped eating for a while. Can I use that cliche with time stopped? Like that quote from Of Mice and Men, “As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.”
Something like that. And I swear that I was writing, in my head, a story. Or at least an opening to that story. The word beautiful kept repeating itself, over and over again. If you saw the Matrix trilogy, it was like that. Like Neo, who sees the Matrix as a continuous flow of code or whatever, that’s how I was building this girl. Word by word, I was trying to translate the same thing she triggered in me. God knows what she triggered. Anyway, because I don’t like to write in public spaces, I headed back home and began to write something I’m now calling The Stendhal Syndrome. It’s gonna be a short story or maybe longer than that. Who knows.
What I’m trying to say is that, in the end, anyone can think of something to write about. An idea for a story. It might take a lot of brainstorming, a lot of coffee, and so on, but anyone can do this. But when you stop living your life, maybe for just a couple of minutes, and you want to transcribe that moment, to alter it, to add, embellish, then that’s when you’re in some serious trouble.
But I wonder why we do that? I know that art is not just a means of sharing ideas, of changing the world, of becoming rich and famous. Art is sometimes a way of keeping a journal.
I mean, I’m writing this story now, inspired by this girl, not only because I want to share it with you, but also because I have to. Because this urge I feel, this need to write it down, transcends logic.
I just have to write it down.