Last chance…

last_chanceAs I write these words there are 36 hours left in our campaigna day and a half in which we need to raise $901 in order to reach our goal.

The pessimist in me has already given up. He’s certain this can’t be done. He wants me to focus on a plan B or to move on. In a way, his reaction is one of the most natural of reflexes: when faced with what we consider to be an impossible task, our first reaction is to walk away. Thus, we don’t have to waste time and energy on a useless endeavor, which, in a world of “survival of the fittest,” could prove to be a fatal error.

But I also remind myself, over and over again, that any act of creation is a matter of hope. You have to believe in what you are doing, because, whether you like to admit it or not, any act of creation implies that this world is missing something. Whether you’re an inventor, a painter, a sculptor, a writer, or a singer… your brain is telling you that you’ve got something to add or change.

An act of creation is also a matter of faith. I define faith as the firm belief that external factors are not going to stand in your way.

A couple years back, when I was a broke writer with no idea of what the future held, a lot of people were asking me why keep writing, if I wasn’t making any money. Funny how a lot of people judge success in terms of monetary income. And I smiled and said that I kept writing because it made me happy, that it was the one thing I was meant to do, and the only thing I wanted to do.

That’s hope and faith, all mixed up together to form strength.

I’ve learned that you can succeed through sheer power of will. You can build the life you’ve always dreamed of, and I’ve always believed that even though it takes a lot of courage to accept defeat, it takes a lot more to fight against it.

To fight against the impossible…

When we are born, we’ve got this strange way of seeing the world: it feels as if everything’s just a matter of time. We don’t know the concept of “impossible.” We believe we’re going to find answers to all our questions. But as we grow up, some of us, if not most, figure out that the questions are never going to end, that some things are impossible, and that hope, eventually, dies.

Some of us never learn that, simply because we never lose hope. Yes, we’re dreamers, and maybe a bit naive, but we also try our best to make those dreams come true.

You never know what’s possible and what’s not unless you try. And if you fail, you have to try again. And again. And again.

Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result isn’t madness. It’s perseverance.

To be honest, I don’t know if we’re going to reach our goal, but I do know what’s going to happen if we don’t: we’re going to keep going, and we’re going to release that book.

At the same time, a part of me feels there’s nothing I can do or say or write that’s going to change this situation. It’s funny, because that doesn’t stop me from trying…

36 hours… $901… maybe it’s impossible, maybe it’s not. If haven’t given up yet, and I’m not going to. Not only because this is my book, but because this is Anca’s book to. Her first book. And I think she deserves to properly publish it, to get as much fun from the experience as I have in the past.

Somehow I believe in her words more than I believe in mine, because isn’t it true that it’s always easier to admire, respect, and worship an act of creation than to perform one?

So, if you want to help us, if you believe in our dream, if you want to make it come true, you can do so here.

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8 comments on “Last chance…

  1. rbdavis5 says:

    if I were employed…. good luck with this!

  2. As rbdavis5 said, I myself am unemployed and unable to spare cash at this point. I have been a Xanga Premium subscriber for several years an really hope they are able to continue on.

  3. tarafatale says:

    Good luck! Don’t stop believing xx

  4. Jeff Nagata says:

    What a great way to think about creating something! To fill in a hole that you feel is missing in the world. Just contributed to your project, because I like seeing you pursue your passion no matter what.

    Even if you don’t reach your goal in the next 34 hours, you still gave everything you got into something that you honestly believe in, so you’ve succeeded no matter what.

  5. I wish you the best with this project and whatever comes next. Keep the faith.

  6. Raqi Eren says:

    “Things have a habit of working out in the end, you know. Eventually.” Keep the faith. ;)

  7. Becca Bear says:

    Im so sad I didnt see this until now! I hope you make it to your goal

  8. Jess says:

    “Funny how a lot of people judge success in terms of monetary income” — couldn’t have worded that better myself. Perfect!

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