Have you ever felt that words were not enough? That you had to say something to someone that no one ever thought of saying? That even though there were no words in the dictionary that could say what you wanted to say, you still tried? And failed. And tried again, because inside your head everything was so clear? And, of course, failed again.
Words that could turn the odds in your favor. Words that could change what couldn’t be changed. Words that could fight against fate.
I’ve felt it. More than once.
Maybe I care too much about words. But I can’t help it. They’re important, because, if you use them right, you accomplish a lot. But sometimes words aren’t enough.
Yet, I still try.
Because I don’t like to give up. I don’t like to surrender or even retreat. I fight until I can’t fight anymore.
These last two months have been really hard on me. I’ve lost people, I’ve lost things (well, they got broken, smashed, whatever…), and I had to figure everything out for myself. And I fought on, which the right thing to do.
But right now, things aren’t looking so good. I believe in impossible battles, but, right now, there aren’t many things that could happen in the last day of April that are going to help me get back up on my feet.
This month the fundraiser managed to raise $505. There are still perks available, and I know that things can happen at the last minute. I know that I just have to make people believe, I have to make people understand that their help is invaluable to me.
Because it allows me to write, and to blog, and to pay bills and food and stuff like that, because I’m just as human as you are. And did I mention the perks? Yeah, they’re kind of cool.
I’m not giving up. I have a lot of things to do and write about, and I’m not giving up. I guess I just need a push in the right direction, so I don’t have to worry about starving while I try to write my novels.
But, ultimately, that’s for you to decide. I don’t know what words to use, how to use them, and I’m sure that my posts should tell you if I deserve a bit of help or not.
Somehow, everything in life is just an act of faith. You have to believe in something other than yourself, because, sometimes, you’re just not enough.
Other than that, you can help me out here, and you can help me find a way to make my dreams come true. Any contribution matters, it really does.
Thank you all for your support, for your help during these two years since I’ve started this blog. I really couldn’t have done it without you,