Beliefs and dreams

believe“To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.”Anatole France

I often say that art is a matter of faith. That you have to believe in what you’re doing. You have to believe in the world you’re creating, in yourself, in your capabilities. Leave no room for doubt, petty frustrations, or insecurities.

I also say that it’s all just a matter of hard work. But sometimes you hit a wall. You’ve run out of things to say. You feel void of motivation, inspiration, or courage. What once brought you great pleasure, it’s now a tedious task.

Yes. We need to act upon our dreams, but we must never forget to dream. To hope. To aspire. To believe.

It’s become increasingly difficult to write. Anything. I’d much rather spend my time sleeping or aimlessly wandering around town. I’d spend hours inside my head, remembering things that I’ve been trying to forget for some time now. I’d fall asleep, my heart filled with the sense of missing someone I never even met. My soul wishing for something extraordinary to happen.

I wanted to fast forward things… a year, two perhaps. But all I was doing was to wait.

I had hit a wall. I had stopped believing in my own dream. I had stopped dreaming altogether about all the great things that I set out to do.

It’s been a complicated year for me. Lots of heartache, lots of unnecessary drama. I got hurt by those whom I never thought capable of hurting me. And I hurt them in return. I lost people, and there was nothing I could do about it. I lost my way. I lost my ambition, my desire to fight. I just wanted for things to be good again. For life to be okay. At least okay.

But it doesn’t really work like that, does it?

You have to go out there and create the life you want. Whether it’s just okay or extraordinary, you’re the master of your destiny.

They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. And works in progress. And lots and lots of bitterness that you don’t want to let go of. And a bunch of unread e-mails. And bills to pay, and friends to talk to every once in a while.

And it wasn’t until recently that I realized that, just as John F. Kennedy once said, the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. To practice what you preach. To do what you know in your heart of hearts to be right. To always speak the truth, even if your voice shakes. And to never stop asking yourself who is it that you want to be.

Who am I going to be if I stop writing? Who am I going to be if I stop trying to change the world, one sentence at a time? Who am I going to be if all I do is write? If my words are not accompanied by actions.

Where am I going to go if I do not see the good in people and act as if that’s the only thing I see?

What’s going to happen if I do not see that we’re all equal? Different, but equal. That we all have greatness and magic inside of us.

What’s going to happen if I get so caught up in the mind numbing routine of my day to day life that I don’t even get a chance to ask myself these simple questions?

Advertisements

11 comments on “Beliefs and dreams

  1. freespirit says:

    So true you must believe in what you do.

  2. “But it doesn’t really work like that, does it?

    You have to go out there and create the life you want. Whether it’s just okay or extraordinary, you’re the master of your destiny.”
    True! and well said. One cant just lie there and hope all will change. You’ve gotta and get up and change it.

  3. Feel your feelings. It will set you free. I long ago let go of any judgement or fear of so-called negative feelings. If we don’t feel them they just get buried alive.

    I love this poem from Rumi:

    The Guest House

    This being human is a guest house.
    Every morning a new arrival.

    A joy, a depression, a meanness,
    some momentary awareness comes
    As an unexpected visitor.

    Welcome and entertain them all!
    Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
    who violently sweep your house
    empty of its furniture,
    still treat each guest honorably.
    He may be clearing you out
    for some new delight.

    The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
    meet them at the door laughing,
    and invite them in.

    Be grateful for whoever comes,
    because each has been sent
    as a guide from beyond.

    Alison

  4. The system is designed for poor people not even having time to think, while searching for a low paid job. Many independent artists and writers have money problems. The system is designed for us to have them. It´s a reflection of a societies state of conciousnness. It´s extremely necessary to believe in a better life, and ” steal ” time to think. By the way, I´m reading and experiencing these days a lot about subconcious reprogramming. It might help you.

  5. tpesce2015 says:

    To all those questions in the last four paragraphs… sometimes we don’t have to endure the answers to certain questions because we choose not to open those doors or stay on those paths. The best answer to all those ifs is… you’ll never know! If you do what you already know is right…

  6. This is so important. A lot of books I read talk about acting the way you want to be…but I do believe you need a change of heart to actually become the person you want…not just “act” a certain way. Great quote to start the post!

  7. Lovely. Inspiring. Keep it up Cristian!

  8. Aaron says:

    Watch the movie tomorrow land, it confronts these two paths, or futures, and explains why it’s so easy to accept a crappy future instead of putting together a brighter one.

  9. thinkdigest says:

    Wow this has just skyrocketed me to believe. Love the quote that it began with too “To accomplish great things, we must
    not only act, but also dream; not only
    plan, but also believe.” .

  10. jeffreybotah says:

    I honestly understand that feeling where the motivation has disappeared after you had so much of it but, there really is no choice but to keep going. This is inspiring!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s