Day to day life

Every year, around the first of January, I make a plan. I set myself specific goals for that year, and I do my very best to achieve them. And I spend each day with the uneasy feeling that I have to arrive at my destination.

I spend each and every day staring at a higher place than we’re I’m at right now. I dream about that place, I imagine it, and I try to reach it. And each day feels like a battle. Because it is. Each day either brings me closer or farther away from reaching my mountain top.

But sometimes I get lost in the labyrinth that is life, I get lost in routines and petty frustrations. It’s easy to feel that there’s no need to push for more. It’s easy to feel like you have enough. Enough to go by. The fire slowly burns out. I become complacent with people and things, and I feel like I have everything figured out.

And, yes, you can easily get lost in plans and dreams too. You can spend your entire life living in a dream world, in a world where you’ll have everything you want. When you’re too afraid to act, to make those dreams come true.

When those days happen, I just want to get to the place I had imagined at the start of the year. I want to get there instantly. I don’t want to spend much time on the road, I don’t want to stare at endless fields of nothing. Of course, I end up doing nothing. I end up filling my day with meaningless conversations with people I never really cared about.

Wishing, without the intent of acting, should be banned. “I wish I’d spend more time writing.”

They say it’s the little things that matter. All the little moments that make up our day to day lives. We never seem to appreciate them, nor do we seem to acknowledge the long and impossible road behind us. We rarely stare in the rear view mirror to see what we’ve accomplished so far.

We rarely enjoy the ride. We want to get to the destination as fast as possible. We don’t want any dead ends, we don’t want hours and hours of endless nothing.

But the thing is, life’s just a matter of perspective. We become who we think we are, and we see what we choose to see.

Spend too much time in the future, admiring a version of you that feels impossible to build, and it’s just as painful and mind-numbing as wallowing yourself in the past.

But it really is so difficult to live in the present, to see each day as meaningful, when our lives feel so uneventful, so boring. Our day to day lives are comprised of routines. We alone can change that.

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8 comments on “Day to day life

  1. Hinna Nayab says:

    I love this Cristian! Beautifully written.
    And I wish I could help with the medical bills but I’m not in the position to do so very sadly. I’ll be sending prayers.

  2. Crosslife Spaces says:

    May i ask why you need to replace all teeth? Please forgive me asking if it’s inappropriate. But i have read the study that false teeth could not function as effective as real ones.

    • They do not function nearly as effectively as real ones, but my real ones decay…first the enamel then the rest… something that (probably) has something to do with Calcium deficiency. Dentists can’t really agree on the cause for all this, but there’s nothing else to do but wait for the teeth to decay and then replace them.

  3. True. Mathematically, a daily improvement of 0.5 percent makes a yearly improvement of more than 6 times the original value. We forget to enjoy the journey as our daily routines to move towards our goals seem boring. I read somewhere that motivation is fleeting, but discipline is unyielding.

    By the way, I have bought couple of your books. Read The Writer. Great book. Reading Dream City now. I think you should put up a paid course on udemy or other platforms, about blogging and writing. Wishing you all the best with your medical situation!

  4. cvlegirl says:

    It’s OK to just be. No agenda, no goal. Just Be. There is no crown. No glory at the end of it all; just a life well lived. No one is keeping score.

  5. JusTalk says:

    I love this, the part where you say “But the thing is, life’s just a matter of perspective. We become who we think we are, and we see what we choose to see.” I am all about thinking positively and becoming those positive thoughts. Great read for today, thanks.

  6. Kelly Romano says:

    Beautifully written

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