Day to day life

Every year, around the first of January, I make a plan. I set myself specific goals for that year, and I do my very best to achieve them. And I spend each day with the uneasy feeling that I have to arrive at my destination.

I spend each and every day staring at a higher place than we’re I’m at right now. I dream about that place, I imagine it, and I try to reach it. And each day feels like a battle. Because it is. Each day either brings me closer or farther away from reaching my mountain top.

But sometimes I get lost in the labyrinth that is life, I get lost in routines and petty frustrations. It’s easy to feel that there’s no need to push for more. It’s easy to feel like you have enough. Enough to go by. The fire slowly burns out. I become complacent with people and things, and I feel like I have everything figured out.

And, yes, you can easily get lost in plans and dreams too. You can spend your entire life living in a dream world, in a world where you’ll have everything you want. When you’re too afraid to act, to make those dreams come true.

When those days happen, I just want to get to the place I had imagined at the start of the year. I want to get there instantly. I don’t want to spend much time on the road, I don’t want to stare at endless fields of nothing. Of course, I end up doing nothing. I end up filling my day with meaningless conversations with people I never really cared about.

Wishing, without the intent of acting, should be banned. “I wish I’d spend more time writing.”

They say it’s the little things that matter. All the little moments that make up our day to day lives. We never seem to appreciate them, nor do we seem to acknowledge the long and impossible road behind us. We rarely stare in the rear view mirror to see what we’ve accomplished so far.

We rarely enjoy the ride. We want to get to the destination as fast as possible. We don’t want any dead ends, we don’t want hours and hours of endless nothing.

But the thing is, life’s just a matter of perspective. We become who we think we are, and we see what we choose to see.

Spend too much time in the future, admiring a version of you that feels impossible to build, and it’s just as painful and mind-numbing as wallowing yourself in the past.

But it really is so difficult to live in the present, to see each day as meaningful, when our lives feel so uneventful, so boring. Our day to day lives are comprised of routines. We alone can change that.

Advertisements

5 thoughts on “Day to day life

  1. Perhaps “extraordinary” begins in day-to-day life. Perhaps it’s the boredom born of routines that ignites the fire inside you — propelling you beyond the ordinary. Often the most extraordinary people are not born that way; they become that way only after having lived an ordinary life. Great post.

    Like

  2. What you wrote really resonated with me and I can certainly relate. I reminded me of a quote that I thought I might share; “Life is a journey, not a destination.” “The world is but a canvas to our imagination.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

    Like

  3. I think I am impatient for the destinations because of the other occupants in my car. Driving solo, admiring scenery, and enjoying a few small-town rest stops can be fun if they would be more relaxing than reaching your vacation spot. 😉

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.