Nobody can define who you are

Me, some 20 years ago.

Ever been told by someone else to stick to one thing or another? Ever been told that doing something is just not you?

Ever been told that “you’ve changed?” Did you notice that it usually had to do with changing something about yourself in a way that others could no longer understand? Or predict? Or influence?

Ever felt trapped by other people’s opinion of you? Ever felt misunderstood? As if what you knew you were would dissipate into the surrounding environment.

Yeah, I been there.

But how do you go about it? How do you go about being you while still living up to other people’s expectations?

Every single time I tried something new, my friends and family would usually laugh in a not so amused or friendly way and tell me that I couldn’t. It wasn’t me. When I decided to start working out, for fear of one day dissolving into thin air. When I decided to self-publish novels, when I decided to start this blog, or a YouTube Channel.

They tried to tell me who I was and wasn’t, and that it was best to stay the same.

I smiled and nodded and did what I wanted to do anyway, while boiling a bit inside. I define who I am.  And yes, I care a lot about what people think, but their opinions know nothing about my wants and needs. They don’t even take them into consideration.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions. And people who preferred the slow agony of comfort zones over the excitement and unpredictability of stepping outside those comfort zones. 

I’ve never been much of a fan of letting anybody — whether the media, my friends, or my haters — define who I am.

Yes, I have done mistakes. Plenty of them. I miscalculated stuff. I was lazy, complacent, and a bunch of other stuff. I hardly ever apologize for them. But those were my mistakes to make, because this is my life, and no one else gets to live it but me.

So, please, if there’s one thing you ever take from reading my posts, it should be this: never let other people define who you are.

If you’re a lawyer, but you really want to be a food blogger, go do that. If you’re a medic who wants to be a singer, then you’d better get to working out those vocal chords. Never give up on something you want because of how someone else tells you your life should be like.

Go all in. You only have one life, and there’s only one way to go about it that reflects that.

I was this sickly little boy. Spent my first six or seven birthdays in the hospital. I’d always get sick around Christmas. I almost died a few times. I’d bruise easily. My parents tried to protect me from getting hurt, which only meant that I’d get hurt by things that didn’t make much sense.

I believe that mental discomfort is one of the most serious issues a person can face. I also believe that it arises solely because a person is not in tune with the realities of the world. For one reason or another, they think the world works in one way when it’s usually the opposite.

I have done my fair share of mistakes. I won’t bother you with the details. I spent most of the time since I started this blog being sick and terrified. You know what every creature does when scared? They become selfish. Mean.

When when the chips are down, when the pressure is on, every creature on the face of the Earth is interested in one thing and one thing only.

Its own survival.

And I’ll be honest with you. Not having a computer, not being able to do what I love, and relying solely on a smartphone, this got me way beyond paranoid. I fear that I might lose it all. If this phone breaks…

But this also made me realize how much I like it. How much I missed it, how it should have been all along.

I’m going to put a dent in the universe, because this is what I was born to do. I’m going to put out the best content that I have ever put out. The very best.

You don’t have any reason to believe me, and if you want, you can help me get that damn laptop by donating here.  If you don’t believe in me, fine. I’ll do it either way.

Because I choose not to be defined by other people’s lack of faith in me.

How many times did you give up on something you loved because your friends or family thought you weren’t good enough?

How many times did you quit blogging because no one would read your content?

How many times did you feel like giving up when people would fall back on their word, and you were left with a broken dream, a broken smile, and a broken heart? All because of promises that were too easy to break.

You want to know what a really great product does to people? It does not make them excited. They won’t be saying, “Oh, this such a wonderful idea. You should do it.”

No. It makes them nervous. Because they are now frustrated with the idea of how they’re going to come up with the money to buy it. They really want it.

When other people say that deciding to work out, or to blog, or to switch careers is not you, all they’re saying is: “I know I should be doing the same thing, but I don’t want to address these issues, I don’t want to follow my dreams for fear of failure.”

They try to talk you out of your dreams because they have already given up on theirs.

No. The only person who can define who you are and what you want is you. No one else. And you need to be self-aware, and play to your strengths and respect your weaknesses. Never limit yourself to what other people think you should be. Have the self-awareness to know what you should be and the guts to do whatever it takes to be that.

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This crazy Romanian kid is struggling to raise enough funds to purchase a laptop he badly needs in order to get stuff done. Like three e-books he plans on offering for free, and some of the best content the web has ever seen.

If you wish to help him out, you can donate any amount you see fit here.

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7 thoughts on “Nobody can define who you are

  1. I have been blogging for 10 years but just recently went full-on public. The blog was always public but I was just writing for me. I didn’t advertise, share, or interact with other bloggers. I’m a private person, but I decided to step out of my comfort zone and I’m still finding my way. I love to write and I have a lot to say, but it takes a lot for me to just “be me” instead of what I think others think I should be. Thanks for the encouragement!! <3

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  2. I admire your resilience and anyone who reads your work can clearly see that you are very passionate about writing and it inspires other to do the same, including myself. I love this! I really hope you manage to get all that you have wished for.

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