When Okay Is Not Enough

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“If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this: We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.”David Levithan

Let me tell you something about myself: I’ve never really settled for okay. Yes, okay is good. For a while. But there’s always something to ruin it… there’s always something waiting to ruin our lives…

You grow complacent with the people in your lives, the dream you had ever since you were a boy becomes just a job… then something bad happens.

And it’s okay to wish for it to be okay again. Just okay. It would be enough to have just enough.

But it’s not. Because you feel like you’ve got nothing. And you just want something, something to hold on to.

I’ve always wanted to be the hero of my own story. My life’s story. And a good story has it all: heartbreaks, drama, tragedies, ups and downs, but most of all… it has a dream. Something to aspire towards.

Obviously, my dream is to become a professional writer. I’ve been losing my way for a long, long time. I’ve quit, I’ve unpublished novels, I discarded first drafts, gave up on projects, postponed them until I gave up on them, and so on. But when the chips are down, when it really pours on me, that’s when I really get motivated.

Yes, in a way it’s easy to get motivated when you’ve got nothing. You only have to reach rock bottom to realize how important this dream really is.

At any given moment we’d happily settle for okay. But it’s not enough. It really isn’t. We need to appreciate what we have, what can’t be taken from us. What we really live for.

In my case, I live to write. It’s been so for thirteen years now. And I’m not giving up on that, and I’m not even going to lie to myself and think that it’s no big deal. What else do I really need? I’ve got my dream, I’ve got my stories to write, and it feels great to be writing again, after a pretty long break.

Don’t settle for okay. Don’t grown complacent with people, places, or ideas. Don’t think that the rest of us have it all figured out, because we don’t. Don’t try to find a shortcut, a secret recipe, and never, ever try to pursue happiness, because it’s just a state of mind.

Aim higher, but don’t try too hard. Keep things in perspective. Live in the moment. Enjoy it. You never know when it could all end.

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11 thoughts on “When Okay Is Not Enough

  1. Just “okay” has not been good enough for me either for a long time. Only, it took me me years to realize that the underlying feeling of anxiety was really the inner me struggling to be MORE than just okay.

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  2. Agree that “ok” is just there in the middle. It’s something neither good nor bad. It’s not always enough. At the moment though, the most I can manage is ok, but sadly, not everyday. Mostly, not even every minute of every day. So my aim is to get better. To feel ok all the time, and then once I’m strong enough again, to reach out for more!

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  3. I can relate to this. “Okay” is definitely not enough for me when it comes to my art. In fact, I think if I settled for just “okay” with my art, I probably wouldn’t be a very successful artist.

    I always have to strive for something more than okay and sometimes, if I have difficulty achieving it, I get disappointed.

    It’s a tough balance.

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