The Story of a Writer

“History will be kind to me for I intend to write it.” Winston S. Churchill

For those of you who don’t know much about me: my name is Cristian Mihai, I am 27 years old, live in Constanta, Romania, and I have been writing for over fourteen years. Also, I do enjoy long walks (on the beach or not) and I have been blogging for more than six years.

But how did I become a writer? How did I decide to be one? What steps did I take? What happened along the way? Why didn’t I quit? What made me keep on keeping on when all hope seemed to be lost? 

Well, it was a dark and stormy night. No, I’m just kidding. It wasn’t stormy, but it was night. And it was dark, obviously. And it was snowing.

I was with my mother, we were taking a bus home. This I remember clearly. And an idea came to me. It just did. Appeared out of thin air or something. Like that light bulb that turns on over a character’s head in a cartoon. An idea for a novel.

I didn’t like reading very much, but I did enjoy making stuff up as a kid. I was still a kid. And I said to myself, “This is actually a good idea. I am going to write about it. Writing isn’t that hard.”

Unless you’re illiterate.

And, yes, writing isn’t hard at all. If you have no idea what you’re doing.

I had no idea what I was doing.

But I wrote. And I wrote. And then I wrote some more. And then I decided to share one of my short stories with a bunch of people on an online forum, and everyone said it was the worst thing ever written. Someone said I was either a retard or fourteen years old.

This made me angry. In the sense that, maybe deep down I knew they must be right about my writing, but I also wanted to prove them wrong, because they had told me to find something else to do.

I advertise perseverance on this blog as if it’s some sort of wonder drug. Mostly because I have witnessed less than average individuals accomplish great things by the simple act of perseverance.

When I was fifteen or so, I read some 163 books in a year. I was so proud. I had yet to discover the opposite sex (or fun, or anything else), so writing and reading was all I had. All I did whenever I had some free time.

If you push yourself to become good at something, and you become obsessed with it, and go all in, then you can become good in a relatively short amount of time.

When I was seventeen I was considered one of the most promising young writers of my generation. Of course, I was writing in Romanian, and that makes for a less impressive market or audience, but still… lots of praise, lots of accomplished writers wanting to meet me, some awards, and being able to do pretty much what I wanted in high school.

What do you think happened?

I became hubris.  Stopped writing. Stopped taking writing seriously. I thought it was too easy. I thought I was too good. That Nobel Prize was mine. No worries. All I had to do was stroll my fingers over a keyboard and pure magic would appear on a computer screen.

It doesn’t work like that.

Soon, I stopped writing altogether. Hormones and stuff happened. Don’t know, exactly. My family was kind of rich, so I just allowed myself to do what all the other spoiled brats did. Parties and stuff. I’m vague on the details because it feels like a dream from another life.

Writers are funny creatures. They live many, many lives, become different people, and change, and then rediscover someone they used to be years back and feel as if they’d want to recover that self, but they can’t. They meet some former self, kept prisoner by mere words in some story long forgotten, and it feels as if reading about a stranger.

Friends who read my novels and stories feel as if they never met me.

Strangers who read my novels and stories feel as if they somehow know me.

None of it is true, of course.

Writers are simply a bunch of people trying, I mean really trying, trying so damn hard, so, so hard… to be just one person. To act normal. They’d like to be someone else every single day.

Anyway. Back to the story. My story. The story of me.

So, when my father went bankrupt, and he told me that there was no more money, no more parties, no nothing, I was devastated. I’ll spare you the gory details, but a lot of stuff happened. Pain and health issues and heartbreak and all that. Isolation. Depression. The kind of things that seem to be rather usual these days. Like an epidemic of self-loathing. Feeling lost. Inhabiting a body that feels disconnected from the soul. Or is it the other way around? Whatever. Living in a futureless world ensures that you do not feel the need to plan ahead more than twenty four hours.

Life was a struggle. I remember that. It hurt. It revolted me. Not having money, not being able to eat properly, or do the stuff I wanted to do, or go to college, or have a girlfriend. Go out with friends. Have friends.

Something broke inside me. I don’t know what it is, where it went, how important that piece was. But whatever was left spent an awful lot of time missing it.

I started writing again. You see, words are the weapon of choice of the powerless. The oppressed and the downtrodden. The black sheep. The rebels. The ones who have no real power, and thus they write about imaginary worlds in order to escape the one they cannot change.

Playing at God is a nice way to forget about the fact that you are no one in particular in the real world.

I managed to convince myself that writing was the only thing that I could do. Anything else didn’t matter. Didn’t have energy for much. I tried self-publishing in January 2011, and failed. Sold four books in four months. Tried blogging and quit after 3 posts and no feedback whatsoever. But then I got up and tried again. It’s just what I did. I never listened to motivational talks or read self-help books.

It was the only thing I knew to do. Somehow. That is debatable, right? Whatever. I thought that I was going to die alone, that I was probably going to die poor. A proper starving artist. But that I would write. That some of my words would endure, would live on, that even after my bones would have turned to dust, someone would still carry a paperback copy of one of my novels.

I do not recommend this kind of mindset. I have spent a lot of time trying to convince people to adopt a different one, because this… yes, it does make you write. A lot. It does make you write more and more, and it does give you the kind of internal fortitude that is required to write for three days straight. But, at the same time, it does make you feel useless in almost all other areas of life.


I should have died. In all honesty, I tell you this. That’s how I felt. Defeated in a way that there seemed to be no way out. Yet two things saved me: writing, and the fact that I am born on Christmas Day and everyone kept telling me when I was a kid that I was destined for great things.

I decided that I would never be my own executioner. Yes, I do not like the word suicide very much. I try not to use it. Or write it. Or even think about it.

I decided that I was going to die writing. That there would simply come a day when I couldn’t get out of bed, and then… that was it. Bright light and angels and whatever. Or maybe not.

I honestly didn’t expect people to read my words, let alone like them. I have still to get used to this. Maybe one never gets used to it; to the fact that one’s words matter to another human being.

But I am certain that my words matter. To me. They always have, always will. And I am going to write, one way or another, until they plant me in the ground and throw dirt on top of me.


  1. Mintly says:

    Your words do matter to me as well. At least, I find your story really inspiring, it made me feel that I could just keep continue writing and painting no matter what’s going to happen next. Thank you for sharing an awesome story. Glad that you keep writing still 🙂

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  2. floatinggold says:

    Agreed. Perseverance is important.
    A nice post. I don’t really have anything else to say.

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  3. This post explains a lot – thank you for sharing Cristian :O)

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  4. You are an extraordinary teacher🙂🙂🙂 Thank You Sincerely for sharing knowledge…it is very much appreciated…best wishes to you always

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  5. I really am impressed with this article Cristian. It’s heartwarming, encouraging and, to me, it reads, ‘straight from the heart’. Your easy and open writing style makes for good reading. I have enjoyed a good many of your articles and don’t think I have ever read one that didn’t feed my soul.
    Keep up the good work, there are many of us out here that think you just great!

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    1. Thank you, Peter. I aim to keep on writing.

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  6. Great insight. And very informative. Writing about our own experiences does encourage others also🙏🏻

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  7. Harsh says:

    You’ve touched me with these words, a lot, I’m glad I got into the world of literature, and I’m glad I found you.

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  8. NefretitiM says:

    I loved reading this and can certainly relate. I’ve given up on writing a thousands times and yet I cannot ever un-attach myself from the urge to write. Perhaps it is one of those things imbedded in the soul of a writer. We write not because we love it, we write because like air we cannot bear to forsake it! Keep writing my friend it is a beautiful art which flourishes when indulged…

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  9. azephyrrose says:

    Yes. Absolutely and unequivocally, yes. Well done, sir.

    I’m very glad you decided to keep going.

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  10. Yahoo! Bravo for you! I’m so glad you are a writer. I wouldn’t have the brilliant wisdom to apply to my writing today were it not for you. Thank you for not becoming your own executioner.

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  11. thirtynwordy says:

    Thank you SO much for this. I really needed to hear it, and maybe it was meant to be that I came across this post today. Oh, and your quote “words are the weapon of choice of the powerless”. Love that. I look forward to diving in to more of your posts. Greetings from California, U.S.!

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  12. In our heads we keep thinking “why would anybody wish to read my silly stuff?”
    But the truth is, we all share something in common. Writing is liberating to say the least.

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  13. hayleslu says:

    What powerful words. Thank you for sharing. My story is similar to yours with the differences being that I’m yet to be successful. Drugs, alcohol, and an unplanned teenage pregnancy took me far from my writer self. I didn’t even know how to write in those dark times. I’m glad you found yourself again. Your words matter to many, I’m sure.

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  14. Mary Mangee says:

    You are too cool for school. I love your words and the way you just tell it like it is. So refreshing. Thank you for continuing to write. I am enjoying all of it so much.

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  15. Catwoman says:

    I could really feel everything while you danced through life, deciding to write again. I like how your simple words are so powerful.
    I’m a rookie blogger and all your posts inspire me to keep on getting better at it!

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  16. rebelbreeze says:

    Enjoyed reading this, thanks. Perseverance — so many advise it. So simple to say but, for most probably, difficult to do without positive outcomes to keep going. But then, since we’re addicted anyway …. I’ll look for your novel in English.

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  17. Rabindranath Pradhan says:

    Very good post. Excellent writing skill.

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  18. I’ve heard it said that art and writing and other creative endeavors aren’t what we do, it’s who we are. So … we can’t quit. It’s not in our bones to quit. Even if we never earn money from it, we do it because we’re driven to do it as surely as we’re driven to eat when we’re hungry or cry when we’re sad or sleep when we’re tired. “Creatives” are innately wired to create, so to walk away from it completely is to die a little inside. As torn as we can feel at times about that, I think it’s necessary to hear other creatives say, “Don’t quit.” Because what you’re really saying is, “Don’t kill that part of you that thrives on creativity. Maybe find a different way to do it, if you feel you must, but don’t let it die because it is the nature of a creative person to create.” … At least that’s what I’ve learned about myself from my own story, and I often hear similar themes from other creatives. 🙂 Great post; thanks for sharing.

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  19. Your words matter. Never give up. Never quit writing!

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  20. Great writing. I really enjoyed how you told about your accepting changes and moving forward anyway. Good for you. MyraSaidIt

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  21. Dee Bragale says:

    I came across you by accident (thank you wordpress) and wow.
    Your straight and honest voice is enormously engaging and love your sense of humor.
    so many sentences really struck home and many words of wisdom delivered in a humble manner.
    especially like:
    Friends who read my novels and stories feel as if they never met me.
    Strangers who read my novels and stories feel as if they somehow know me.

    I felt like I somehow knew you while I read this, but maybe its you that somehow knows me.
    You struck deep, I actually cried at one point and had to get up and get a tissue. thats pretty good surgery of the soul. not everyone makes me get up and blow my nose. lol

    thank you for sharing yourself.

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  22. Loved your writing. It is totally real and you can feel that as you read it. Thank you for such a great job!

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  23. arlaanaslane says:

    Twenty seven years old? Way too much wisdom you have! Thank you for being you, stripped of silly external walls. Please conquer the world’s misery with your inspirational youthful self!

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  24. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s so important to persevere. I used to start a lot of stories and give up, but now I am changing, thankfully.

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  25. What an amazing story of how you came to write. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Thanks!

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    1. Thank you for reading!

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  26. rashu2015 says:

    That was an emotional read but a motivating one. I learn a lot from your blog posts. From the time, I started following your blog, every day I read and learn something from yr blog. Thank you so much for all the valuable knowledge.

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  27. Hello Cristian, another outstanding post…I am never disappointed in your writing. E.

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  28. Linutyte says:

    Thank you. You inspired. Right now I am struggling to find a job and maybe I will give a shot for writing. I have always loved creating stories, too, but I never got published… to be honest, I never even showed my writing to anyone until I was like 18… I thought that they are too poor for the world, that noone will read them… But you inspired me that maybe… just maybe I am worth more than I think. So, thank you. A lot.

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  29. ahmaddagher says:

    amazing… I can relate to a lot of the things you said, I wish you the best of luck

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  30. Idara-abasi says:

    Self publishing a book at 19, that’s GUTS.

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  31. DiDi says:

    Thank you for sharing your story, I hope all is better now 😊

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  32. Marlene Lima says:

    Sometimes we need a pause even from writing, to take a step back, gain new strength and inspiration. And when we are ready again, the flow comes naturally.
    I understand really what you mean with this common “writer frustration”. But it’s part of life. Sometimes i have been without writing for a long time…
    But once you have “the writer” in you, it doesn’t die even if you take a break, it gets more powerful before it strikes again!
    Hope it feels better now. 🙂

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  33. I love that I can relate to this. I hate that I can relate to this.
    Great post.

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  34. What a remarkable story. I also advocate and treasure perseverance, especially when I feel like giving up (writing or singing). Thank you so much for your raw honesty. It’s funny you are also Romanian. It would be nice to have a cup of tea sometimes, if you ever decide to visit Bucharest.

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  35. So, the way you simply write as if you are speaking to the reader is truly a gift to you, but even more so to those of us who have the pleasure of reading your work. This was a really good bio for you and very well written… Thank you for sharing and getting back to what you do…Writing!

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  36. Reblogged this on Libertas Nova and commented:
    …”Per Aspera Ad Astra”, from the bottom to the high grounds, talking about the life of a the writer from the perspective of a young Romanian writer…

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  37. Sometimes we all need to express ourselves in this way for our failures that we have experienced in our lives. If I would write such an article I would titled “The Desired and the Failed Profession”

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  38. A. Rinum says:

    This seemed like my own story… I feel like I’m on the same boat. Writing is a way of putting all my energy out without causing too much internal damage. It’s a way of self-healing. I have those moments too where I feel like no one will read what I write, but I do it anyways… I still don’t know why…

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  39. Ayana Mikain says:

    This is gold. Thank you for sharing an amazing story as always, Christian!


    1. Thank you, Ayana!


  40. You’re a powerful writer!✌
    I wanna ask something…. Is that a 14 year old you in your profile picture?

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      1. Okay.😊 You look quite studious in the pic like an ideal student!

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        1. I was. For a while.

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  41. Reading your story, Cristian, and then the comments here … no, your story is not “nice”. It is far beyond “nice”. It is gripping in a major way – and the more so, as it is a true story from the heart of a blogger to us bloggers.
    I am not sure what could be more profoundly touching than that.

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    1. Thank you, Elena!

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  42. thedewdiary says:

    Hey Cristian!
    I came over to your “main blog” from art of blogging where I am.learning so much as a novice blogger. Well not so Much learning as trying to put them into practice.

    But this personal story you shared resonates with me. Its funny how life has a way of bringing you full circle back to the essence who you are. But I guess that’s the journey of self discovery. I had stopped writing for so so many years. …but I’m here now.

    But have been very lazy and carefree so gonna take your advice and write write write.

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    1. History does not repeat itself, but it does rhyme.

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  43. mike2all says:

    As usual, well written and very insightful.

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  44. The Writer says:

    This is me to a T. Just trying to be normal…. one normal person.

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  45. Chris Valdes says:

    The greatest writing and the highest level of artistic expression is birthed out of, I’m almost tempted to say almost entirely birthed out of, psychological necessity. Trying to put some semblance of order to the the ever-present chaos of our internal and external surroundings through articulating our deepest considerations in the best and most forthright way we know how. I honestly was blessed by reading this and will continue reading your posts. Stay in the peace and the promise of knowing that your higher purpose is greater than your material profit, originality and transformation can be achieved in no other way.


  46. Shama Shafiq says:

    I love how you give details in every sentence you write!

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  47. seniinthebox says:

    Just the sort of piece I was looking for :)

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  48. Gloria Terry says:

    It is hard to not give up. Am glad you didn’t. Me too, until they plant me in the ground, I will not stop. Thank you for sharing. This is great!

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    1. Thank you, Gloria! I am glad you enjoyed reading my post.

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  49. Anna says:

    “Writers are funny creatures. They live many, many lives, become different people, and change, and then rediscover someone they used to be years back and feel as if they’d want to recover that self, but they can’t. They meet some former self, kept prisoner by mere words in some story long forgotten, and it feels as if reading about a stranger.” :-)

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  50. Roser says:

    Very interesting. Thank you for sharing!

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  51. Ishaan Sharma says:

    A very motivating life story!

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  52. Ihrilyn Pendatun says:

    Thank you for sharing this. I will remember this in my writing journey as well. God bless you!

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