Truth be told, it’s quite hard to think of something I haven’t been afraid of. Scrawny kid, strange kid, I used to spend so much time at the doctors… I used to be afraid of them. Still am. Afraid of spiders, of bugs, of dogs, of getting hurt, of darkness…
I spent my childhood being afraid.
Then I grew up and spent my teenage years and early adulthood being afraid of different things. Of failure, of success, of other people, of dying alone, of making a fool out of myself in front of a large number of people. Afraid to speak up, afraid to pursue my ambitions, afraid to tell people the truth about how I felt, still afraid of dogs…
Yet, somehow… I am still here, aren’t I? Still fighting, still doing my thing. Not as afraid of dogs as I used to be. Doing the scary thing before I get to think about it too much. Recognize the fear, count to ten, do it. And while you’re doing it, you kind of realize it’s not as scary as you thought.
Here’s the ironic truth: behind every fear lies someone you wish you were. Afraid of failure? You wish you were the kind of person who is a success. You’re afraid you’re not, you do not want to confront this, to find out…
But the thing is, you do not find out if you’re this or that. You only find out if you’re that person yet. That’s all. Three letter word that makes a hell of a difference.
You love the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.
Let love guide you. Let that vision of who you want to be inspire you.
I did that.
Man, I was so afraid. Can’t imagine the terror I felt… how much time it took me to get things done, to learn things, to face my fears. I got my heart broken, and I thought I was going to die alone. I was this weird kid at school that had no friends, and I was afraid that no one would ever like me.
But I had a vision. I could see it, in my mind, as clear as what my eyes saw. I could see who I wanted to be, how I’d act, how everything would be, would feel…
I was afraid, but I did it anyway.
This is what we all feel. We carry our fears with us, we hide them deep inside, but we’re all afraid of something. The idea is not to be fearless… no… the idea is to face your fears, to recognize the lies those fears keep feeding you, and do whatever you would do if you weren’t afraid.
Because, one day, when looking back at your life, you’ll regret not facing your fears… you’ll regret not being brave enough to become who you’ve always wanted to be.