Do or die!

“Because people, when they’re gonna either die or succeed, tend to succeed.”Tony Robbins

Rock bottom. The lowest possible level, absolute bottom. It can’t get worse than this. The morning when you can’t stand the face you see in the mirror. The bitterness that you have to swallow each time you take a deep breath, the pain you have to carry in your heart, while pretending everything’s okay. That you’re fine. That it could be worse. That others have it worse.

The true dark night of the soul. No amount of pretending, rationalizing, meditating can do any good.

When it’s do or die.

I’ve been there. Twice. Funny. I did not learn the first time. I had to reach rock bottom twice to figure things out. I am still trying to understand how it is. How our suffering, our struggles, our failures make us better.

When you’re twenty years old, unemployed, broke, struggling with health issues and no healthcare plan, when your friends have abandoned you, when you think of yourself as a monumental failure, when it’s a struggle to wake up in the morning because, well, what’s the point?

I’ve been there. And I know that one of two things happens: you either get tired of it all and give up on life, or you get so angry that it sets your soul on fire and you conquer your demons and fight your way up.

One of two things: do or die.

But I do want to ask you a question: is it necessary to reach rock bottom? Do we have to be at our lowest to realize that we must fight and keep fighting?

What if you were to do anything as if your life depended on it?

Don’t want to work out? Work out. Don’t feel like writing? Write. Don’t want to talk to people? Talk to people.

Do the scary thing. Do what you’ve been postponing over and over again. Postpone being lazy, watching TV, procrastinating.

“I’ll act lazy tomorrow.”

And then you wake up the next morning and welcome the grind with a big, cheeky grin glued to your face. You look like hell, but you like the face that’s staring you in the mirror.

Remember this: if you wake up tired, you’ve been chasing dreams. If you go to bed tired, you’re making your dreams come true.

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7 thoughts on “Do or die!

  1. Reblogged this on janbeek and commented:
    Cristian is one of my favorite bloggers. His words cut deep. His words lift. His words make me think. Sometimes I actually act as a result of his encouragement. Maybe maybe tomorrow I’ll actually use my gym membership!

    Liked by 1 person

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