I’ve always been afraid of heights. Just imagining looking down over a ledge at this great abyss was enough to make me dizzy…
I have always been afraid of falling. Of failing. Of being rejected, criticized. Of being ridiculed, ignored, despised, laughed at.
I’ve always been afraid. Of heights, of spiders and bugs, of dogs, of other people, of getting hurt, of pain, of suffering…
I was born weak. Fragile. Bad eyes, bad health, bad posture… when it came to first impressions… I suffered from what folks like to call social anxiety – I just wasn’t good around people. I lived inside my head. I despised going out. I despised talking to others.
From my father, I understood that I was dumb, ugly, and a failure at everything. I understood that I was afraid of so many thing, because greatness hadn’t been bestowed upon me.
I wrote, yes, but no one bothered to read my words. My stories. I kept writing nonetheless.
A part of me hoped that my words would make me feel less invisible. Would make this pain go away. Would stop me being afraid. Would silence these voices that kept telling me that I was too dumb, too weak, too ugly to succeed. To be happy. To smile. To laugh.
It was just me and my words. For a long and silent time.
Then, my first week of high school – among all the new things to suddenly be afraid of – one of my teachers asked to read a story of mine. This teacher looked me in the eye and told me I was talented.
And I decided to be talented.
one person can make all the difference…
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So, so true.
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You must be doing amazing things now 🙂💚
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I try.
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It’s a good feeling to know you tried while you’re free falling 💚
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So great 🙏
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Thank you, Miranda!
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The moment you set standards for your credentials the world will follow
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True.
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I miss Kurt Cobain.
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All about the power of self belief.
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Hi Cristian,I’m glad you believed in the positive words of your teacher and you never gave up on your writing even when people were not reading
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Thank you!
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I’ve not really read a lot of your work but from the blogs that I’ve read, you’ve talent bro. Keep it coming!
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I am always afraid of what people say
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That quote from Kurt, I was not ready for the depth!
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Really excellent post. I reblogged it. Keep up the great work Cristian!
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Thank you, Suzette!
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Sometimes it just takes one person to believe in you
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Indeed!
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