Nothing That I Want

Sudden Denouement

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His left eye sags a little, but I do not get the impression he is doing what caused that anymore. I do not know when all of it happened, or stopped, or if perhaps, on some level, it still continues. He always smells of stale cigarettes with a faint scent of last night’s beer. His face looks hard, and he is too skinny. Scary skinny, but I cannot pinpoint what is wrong exactly. You never know the truth with him; it is always impossible to get a straight answer. Could it merely be the years of alcoholism, cigarettes, and drugs?  Or, is there something fatally wrong with his health after all the years of abuse? When I see him I want to shout at the top of my lungs: “Dear lord you need to go to the fucking doctor, you need a physical, something is wrong with your health. I…

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What doesn’t kill you

Either makes you stronger or makes you wish it did.

Letting go or holding on. Two of our most defining reactions. And they couldn’t be more different.

Holding on to pain(or the memory of it), holding on to regret, to bitterness…

We consume an awful lot of energy thinking about the past -as if we didn’t know that it can’t be changed. We hold on tight to that which can never be changed. It is all a matter of choice. Strength, courage, dignity, all of them are choices. In fact, we choose who we are every single day. Even our most simple of decisions end up shaping who we are.

But, ultimately, the truth is that you are who you decide to be. You are what you think, what you feel, what you say, what you do.

And, yes, it does seem at times that we have no choice, no real power.

That life just happens to us.

It’s not true. We do have a choice, even when it seems we don’t. There’s always a choice.

So… What doesn’t kill you won’t make you anything until you decide.

You choose if it makes you stronger, weaker, or leaves you afraid for the rest of your life.

When bad things seem to happen for no particular reason, you are the one who decides what is what and has the ability to construct meaning from the experience.

Some people either win or lose. Others win or learn.

Your choice.

What is to come

Let’s get this show we call “Life” started.
Major topics to come from http://www.notaporcelaindoll.wordpress.com
Self-Confidence
Self-Awareness
Self-Responsibility

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fearMost people like to believe talent, hard work, and luck are among the determining factors of success. For a long time I thought you only needed any two of them to be successful.

But, actually, if you want to be successful, and it doesn’t matter if all you want is to become a great dancer or actor or writer, or whether you want to pick up pretty girls in bars, you just have to be willing to make a fool out of yourself. Continue reading

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N is for NIGHTMARES – The Roundhead Prelude 6, Soon, you will see..

Twisted Roads of Madness

“You don’t get it do you Sil? I can tell,” she says to her, Sil looks back down at her phone and then back to her and smiles.

“Not really, I mean, it’s scary, but it’s not really, my thing,” Sil says as she hands the phone back to her.

“I loved it, I mean, I really loved it, I actually felt horny after I read it, so I slipped into Mary’s bed, and we made out!” She says excitedly.

“You and Mary?”

“I know, it’s been like, going to happen for ages, but I didn’t think either of us would ever work up the courage, and then bam! I read the story and was just turned the fuck on and thought, shit, this is it, this is the time we finally get it on.”

“That’s awesome, now I can finally stop hearing about how all you want to do…

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