The Portrait of a Writer

I began writing in my most vulnerable years. I was dumb and arrogant, as most teenagers seem to be, and I did my best to pour greatness into every sentence I wrote. But I was also lying to myself, writing about what I didn’t know, pretending to know, and I got caught and people could see that I wasn’t willing to let them in – I  was building this wall to protect my true self from anyone who would be searching for it behind my words. There was nothing that belonged to me in the stories I wrote.

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Never Give Up on Your Dreams

One of my favorite quotes goes like this: “Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.”

Ambrose Redmon wrote that.

Fear is an impulse, or like the tattoo on my arm states, “Fear is the mind killer.” Frank Herbert wrote that.

What does fear have to do with anything? Well, it has a lot to do with how I became a writer. Continue reading

These Dreams of Mine…

“Where do they go, these dreams of mine? Do they live? Do they die? Do they fall? Do they fly?”

“Most people will spend their lives doing jobs that they don’t particularly enjoy, and will eventually save up enough money to stop doing those jobs just in time to start dying instead. Don’t be one of those people. There’s a difference between living, and just surviving. Do something that you love, and find someone to love who loves that you love what you do.
It really is that simple.
And that hard.”John Connolly

I strenuously believe that most of us crave adventure. We want our lives to make us feel. We crave the bittersweet excitement brought on by uncertainty.

But we also want safety. And comfort. Just enough.

We are torn between “more” and “just enough.”
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Does Your Why Make You Cry?

Romania is last in the European Union when it comes to reading books. The book market here is something out of a horror story for writers.

What do these two sentences mean?

I shouldn’t be able to do what I do. And I don’t think that you ever gave it a thought while reading my posts.

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[REVIEW] Metamorphosis by Raquel Swann

From Amazon.com:

Every morning when you wake up does the mirror tell you lies? 

Today, Raquel doesn’t feel quite herself as she opens her eyes in a mountain cottage beside a peculiar old woman with seemingly humble intentions. A choice, in a small shot glass, sits in front of her ready to change her destiny forever. Everything depends on her next move. Everything. A sinister evil which grows in the shadows must be stopped before it’s too late. How can you stop what you can’t see? Can one person really make a difference? 

Metamorphosis is a serious deep dive into the heart of a transgender woman within a fantasy backdrop. This book examines social issues facing the entire LGBTQIA community with a focus on what it truly means to be yourself. There is a hero inside all of us, please join Raquel as she attempts to find strength in the face of unfathomable odds. Whether you are MTF FTM Nonbinary Transgender – there is something to soothe your dysphoria within the pages of this book. 

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Metamorphosis. Defined as a change of the form or nature of a person. Defined as a painful transformation, one that alters you in ways that you cannot go back.

Who do you wish to be? What would you do to become that person?

Metamorphosis by Raquel Swann asks these very questions, and provides us the tools to answer them ourselves in a story that is enthralling and easy to read. An intriguing concept, written as a sort of fairytale, this first person narrative tackles the issue of identity in an original and interesting manner.

To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to tell you who you should be means to fight a never ending battle. It means to face demons that you’d much rather ignore, it means to accept the uncertainty, fear, and pain of being yourself among others who’d like you to be who they need you to be.

And this theme, this burning desire to be ourselves, it’s something we all struggle with, whether we like to admit it or not.

Metamorphosis is well worth your time for this reason alone. The struggle to be self-defined, fueled from within, while also coming to terms with the fact that we don’t discover ourselves, but rather create that self through heartache and pain.

Who do you want to be? Why? And when was the last time you felt like yourself?

What I Learned from Reading A LOT of Personal Development Books

A couple years ago I decided that it was important to develop myself. It was more than just curiosity. It was necessity. I had went through a series of traumatic experiences which left me with the regret that I could have done better.

If only I had known…

So I began to read about personal development. I studied psychology, NLP, self-hypnosis, meditation…

I think that the vast majority of what happens to us is beyond our control. But we always get to choose how we react to what happens to us.

Which makes how we react a lot more important than what happens.

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The Three Elements of Success

Success.

A word that often gets thrown around alongside others such as grind, hustle, perseverance, resilience.

There are but three elements to becoming successful in any given area. Continue reading