Write, write, write

writeIn my humble opinion, there are two main rules to becoming a writer: read a lot and write a lot. You can’t do one without the other, no matter how much you try. Fiction writing is different than any other kind of writing, and there’s a point in knowing the conventions of the genre before you can break them.

But today’s post is about writing. A lot.

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You and I through a thousand lives…

Here we are, holding hands at the edge of forever. Here we are, in the emptiness between stars. Here we are, waiting for another life.
Soulmates never die.

You know the legend the Ancient Greeks had about humans? That they once had four legs and four arms and heads with two faces? That Zeus, afraid of them being too powerful, decided to split them in half, damned them to spend a lifetime in search of their missing halves?

No, not a lifetime, but a thousand lifetimes…

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Why not?

This is one of the last videos I recorded for YouTube. Before my dental trouble, so to speak. And I never got the courage courage to upload it. It just felt… pointless. I couldn’t find it in me to record myself anymore, so what was the point of uploading this video? But today I changed my mind. Decided to upload it and share it with you. Maybe my words find someone when they need them the most. Continue reading

In ourselves

stars“The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves.”William Shakespeare

They say everything happens for a reason. They believe in fate, in a certain alignment of the stars. They believe in all kinds of things. They want to put the blame on the universe (or certain parts of it), but not on themselves. Continue reading

A lesson

“Heard joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he’s depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says, “Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up.” Man bursts into tears. Says, “But doctor…I am Pagliacci.” ― Alan Moore

You know the saying, “Don’t judge a book by its cover?”

Well, it’s true.

Oftentimes there’s a big difference between what we’re able to decipher about a person, what we see at the surface, and what lies underneath it all. There’s a big difference between appearance and essence.

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Chase your dreams

“Whether you succeed or not is irrelevant, there is no such thing. Making your unknown known is the important thing– and keeping the unknown always beyond you.” – Georgia O’Keefe

Why do I keep writing? Why do successful people keep at it? Why do billionaires don’t retire on tropical islands? Why doesn’t it all end when your dream comes true? Why doesn’t it come a time when there’s nothing left to wish for?

Because, simply put, it’s all a long, long journey. One word at a time, one step at a time, one little goal at a time. It’s all about becoming, not obtaining. Continue reading

Jazz: New edition. (Kind of) a sequel coming soon…

23rd of July, 2012. The day I released Jazz.

Inspired by the beautiful artwork you see at the top of this post, I wrote what would soon become my best selling novel. It was one of my last stories written in a true romantic fashion. My own way of saying that love does conquer all, even if the world seems to want nothing but to crush it. Hope and cynicism fighting over the ability to dictate one’s reality.

I wrote it because of a woman, I wrote it for a woman to read it, and I wrote it because, right then and there, there was nothing else for me to do.

And now, almost five years later, a new, improved edition is released. With a new cover for the e-book edition.

 

A heartbreaking portrayal of ambition, treachery, and deception, Jazz tells the story of Chris Sommers, a young aspiring writer from New York, who travels to Paris in the hopes of meeting Amber, a mysterious and beautiful woman he has always been irresistibly drawn to.

Chris is soon thrust into a world where everyone seems to be playing a dangerous and corrupt game. Anything is permissible, and even secrets that have been locked away inside the most hidden drawers of the soul will slowly resurface.

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Here’s what folks had to say about it:

This beautifully haunted story is truly exceptional, and a must read for any reader who craves a tale centered around pure, human emotion described in such great detail that you feel it down to your very core.

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Jazz was hard for me to put down. I liked the ending and the relationship between the main character and his dream girl. I love how this book feels like it has its own personality.

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Cristian Mihai has a certain style and tone to his writing that is utterly irresistible.

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We find ourselves falling in love with Cristian’s rich imagery as he leads us through the novel wanting, hoping for the happy ending, but, as in every jazz song there always seems to be a beautiful melancholy attached to every note, making the beautiful, but finite end of his novels somehow okay.

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Jazz is available on all Amazon’s stores as an e-book and paperback. You can find it here.

Love is the story of Chris Packlem, a man who has always aspired to rule the world, always playing the game of life by the rule of “all or nothing.” A proper gambler, Chris is soon confronted with the consequences of his own decisions. Having been guilty of the sin of ambitious men, he has to find a way to regain his freedom, while battling with his own inner demons and a past that keeps coming back to haunt him.

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They say courage is not only one of the most important of virtues, or the most important, but it’s every single virtue we possess at their breaking point. You can’t be kind if you’re not brave enough to be kind to those who least deserve it. You can’t be ambitious if you’re not brave enough to fight for what you want even when it seems that the entire universe is conspiring against you. You can’t love someone if you’re not brave enough to fight off the impulse to jump ship.

You can’t be anything in this world unless you’re brave.

Alice once told me that I was brave, even though I didn’t seem to be.

When she said those words all I could think about was that I was afraid of so many things: of dogs and spiders, of heights, of planes, of losing her. I was afraid I was never going to become who I’ve always dreamed of becoming. I was afraid the magic between us would disappear. I was afraid of making Jerry angry and getting fired.

I was afraid that one day she’d decide that I wasn’t good enough for her…

And yet I looked her in the eyes, smiled, and decided to be brave.

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The main living room resembles an abandoned lair. The sunset is filtering its agony through the high windows, painting trembling arrows of orange light on the marble floor. Out of every corner of the room, shy, ash-colored shadows slowly push forward.

In the center of the room, holding a brush in his right hand, William’s standing still, some distance away from an easel. He’s barely breathing. Waves of color bleed from the freshly painted canvas. He scratches his cheek and sighs. Behind him, his shadow quivers like a ghost.

He takes a few steps back from the easel. He closes his eyes and places his fingers over his eyelids, as if trying to imprison inside his brain the gracious forms his mastery had created. He hesitates before opening them, as if he fears the dream is going to disappear under the weight of the room. But as he slowly opens his eyes he can see that the dream is still there, on the canvas, reflecting the fading gold of the dying sun. “I think this is my best work yet,” he says with a low voice.

I walk over to him. “You always say that.”

William furrows his eyebrows. His eyes burning with excitement, he nods and says, “Because it’s always true.”

“Maybe you’re right,” I say as I look at the painting, colors still fresh. A beautiful woman, dressed as a bride, is sitting in front of a piano, her chin resting on her arm. She’s staring contemptuously out the window at a velvety, starless night. It takes me a couple of seconds to realize that it’s actually my piano, my living room. This living room. “Who is she?”

“Amber,” William says.

“Doesn’t look like her.”

William stares at the portrait, sighs pathetically. “I can’t remember how she looks like anymore.”

“You said you’d stop,” I say. “You said that the moment you wouldn’t be able to remember how she looks like-”

“She was my last impossible love,” William interrupts me.

“What’s that got to do with anything?”

“It’s everything,” William takes another look at the painting. “It kept me alive all these years.” He walks around the room. “Isn’t that what we all want?” he asks, his finger hovering toward the canvas. “To hope that somehow our actions will be able to change the past.”

“You’re not making any sense.”

William turns around to face me. “Okay, then. We hope that it’s never too late to get what we want most.”

“And Amber’s what you want most in the world.”

William shakes his head. “I can’t remember how she looks like. You’ve said it yourself. This is not Amber anymore,” he says pointing at the painting on the easel. “If I can’t remember how she looks like, how she talks, how she smells, then how is she supposed to be what I want most in the world?”

I shrug.

“I don’t know what I want…”

“We rarely do.”

William laughs. “You’re funny. You know what you want. You always knew. And you always wanted it.”

I glance back at him.

“No, not money,” William says. “That’s not what you always wished for.”

“You know what I’ve always wanted?”

“Of course. I could see it in your eyes when we first met. I can see it now.”

“Really?” I laugh. “And what is that?”

William walks over to the portrait on the easel, runs his index finger across the frame. “Love. That’s all you want. And that’s the only thing you never got… it’s burning you, this desire to be loved, to be genuinely loved by someone. Not for what you have, but for who you are. And you think that by acquiring everything else in the world you’ll somehow manage to fill this void, this strange emptiness you feel creeping inside your soul in your loneliest of nights.”

“It seems you know more about me than -”

“You never even tried.”

“Try what?”

“To say it out loud. To admit that this is what you want most.” He takes out his pack of smokes. “That’s why you bought this painting. That’s why you bought all the portraits of Amber I ever made.” He lights a cigarette. “They’re all reminders… that some people actually had what you never deemed yourself worthy to have.”

“I have to admit. It’s a nice theory.”

“It’s not a theory. It’s the truth. You just can’t accept it, because love, true love, can’t be bought.”

“Ironic, isn’t it?”

“You’re rich enough to have everything, except the one thing you want most.”

“Maybe we’re all rich enough for that,” I say.

“Spoken like a realist.”

“Only the weak can afford to be idealists.”

“Then we’re both weak.”

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This title will be auto-delivered to your Kindle on May 15, 2017.

Available for pre-order on all Amazon.com e-stores. You can find it here.